I am not sure that I have the right name for you. I read your post, but couldn't respond until now (had to share the computer!) and now it has been erased.:)
Please consider re-posting! We would really like to help. It is great that you reached out...it sounds like you are making very good choices in your life, and the effort that you are putting forth will really take you in a great direction, well done!
I hope that you will reconsider and talk to us some more...sometimes it just takes awhile for a response, but you will get plenty of support and understanding here;:)
I hope to talk to you soon,
"Courage is not the abscence of fear, it is feeling afraid and doing it anyway!"
"It is when we are most lost that we sometimes find our truest friends"
Panic Syndrome recovery due to CBT