i came across your story doing research. it immediately caught my eye when you said you were 27, and almost 3 years on zoloft. i am also 27, and just over 3 years on zoloft. between 25 an 100 mg most of the 3 years, and briefly up to 200. 25 during pregnancy, and at 100 right before i went cold turkey. i did have depression as a teenager, even attempted suicide at 15. after that got put on paxil, which made it SO much worse, so i quit taking it and got better. my mom has been on antidepressants for 20 years, which is what prompted me to do the research.
so anyways, i started taking zoloft just after my daughter (first baby) was born. when i went in for a checkup, the doc asked how i was doing. i said tired. (which is pretty reasonable considering i was staying up half the night trying to breastfeed a baby who wouldn't latch on, not knowing my milk was just about
dried up!) so he recommended zoloft. said it would help. and it did. but if i had known then what i know now, i would have learned how to better deal with my fatigue rather than using an antidepressant as a crutch. at my next check-in, he said he thought i would do good on it long term. so i just went with it. he's a doctor, he must know what he's talking about
. then the next thing you know i have 'postpartum depression' because i just had a baby and i'm on zoloft. what the heck? i wasn't depressed, just tired. so i was on it for 3 years, through a pregnancy (yes i know, i tried to get off of it because of birth defects, but the doc said birth defects with antidepressants were no more likely than birth defects with no meds, and i had major withdrawal symptoms and couldn't get off) and was starting to be pretty dependent. even going a day or less without my zoloft (sometimes i forgot to take it) brought on anxiety, irritability, and frustration at the smallest thing. and with now 2 small children, i had a very hard time with it. so i figured i just wasn't ready. i even tried tapering down, and that didn't work. the weight gain, (although it wasn't much) loss of energy, and increased appetite that i experienced, i figured was just normal after pregnancy. i've seen countless women gain weight after having kids. my mind was always sluggish, in a fog, almost like i was high on pot. my memory was really bad, too. i just figured that was leftovers from all the years of heavy drinking i did before my first pregnancy. and now that i think about
it, people close to me have said i have a short fuse since having kids. what's up with that? i was so carefree before. so since i got on the zoloft within a month or so after having my first child, and quit drinking around the same time, (i drank heavily for a few years before my first pregnancy, but only a few times after having the baby) everything i now recognize as side effects, i just chalked it up to post pregnancy or after-effects of years of drinking.
i didn't mean to quit taking my zoloft cold turkey, but that's how it happened. i forgot to take my pill for 2 days. then on the 3rd day, i remembered that i hadn't taken them. so i grabbed the bottle, took one out, and as i'm looking at it, ready to put it in my mouth, i realized - i feel great! i'm in an awesome mood! so what the heck, i decided not to take it and see what happens. and like i said - usually i get really moody without it, so feeling great off zoloft is completely new to me. it's been about
a week now of no zoloft. i think i'm getting these 'brain zaps' everyone is talking about
. i had no idea what they were till i started doing research. but call me weird, i think it feels kinda cool! last night i couldn't sleep hardly at all. insomnia hitting full force. but my appetite has decreased. i used to want to eat everything under the sun, ESPECIALLY sugar. i was getting frustrated because i was trying SO HARD to lose weight, and i was struggling really hard just to maintain. in fact i started gaining again right before i got off the zoloft. but in the last week, not only has my mood been incredible, but my energy level is back to normal, my appetite is back down to a healthy level, and i've already lost 5 lbs!! so knowing what i know now, (didn't do the research till i was already off zoloft for 4 days) i'm gonna continue to push through with the cold turkey method, as it seems to be working this time. (go figure?) but if it doesn't, oh well. i'll start taking it again, and use some of the awesome tips i've read on here to slowly taper off. (maybe start at a lower dosage?) i'm gonna have to buy some benydril to help curve my symptoms. the glass of wine sounds like a good idea, but i'm a recovering alcoholic, and have been sober 2 1/2 years, so i'll have to substitute chamomile tea or something. thank you for the inspiration, information, and hope! and that goes for everyone who has posted on here!! i joined this forum just to jump on the bandwagon, i had no idea there were so many people going through the same thing as me!! you're all doing great, keep up the good work!!