Okay, here is my #1 phobia, looming in front of me like a big scary shadow...
I have my yearly check-up/overhall starting tomorrow with a yearly OBGYN appointment, followed by blood work, and finally a mammogram.
I dread certain aspects of it worse than others...the blood pressure check...really low at home (low 100's over low 60's) but tends to be high at the doctor's office (mid 100's over high 80's/low 90's)
I also catastrophize what they may find in my test results. The tests themselves don't really bother me...it's what they may reveal that gets me in anxious mode.
I also have been having some lower abdominal pain...I am not sure if it is gastro related as in IBS (have had some, but not all of the symptoms for this) or if it could be something else...*gulp*.
I have a cousin (step, not genetically related) that just died of ovarian cancer...so I am trying to use my CBT thinking, rather than my anxious thinking right about now...but it is a struggle, I have to admit!
I have been putting this off for a couple of months, and it is just time to do it, afraid or not...but I am really afraid...so any encouragement would be so appreciated!;)
"Courage is not the abscence of fear, it is feeling afraid and doing it anyway!"
"It is when we are most lost that we sometimes find our truest friends"
Panic Syndrome recovery due to CBT
Post Edited (Scaredy Cat) : 7/1/2012 8:58:05 PM (GMT-6)