Posted 7/6/2012 5:45 PM (GMT -6)
So, I've been taking Buspar again ...only since yesterday, so not a lot of change yet. I will say that at least the lower dose doesn't make me so sleepy. Anyway, at this point I still feel like I'm going in circles. This morning I felt a little shaky right off the bat about 10 minutes after getting out of bed. Then, I started feeling a little better, so I decided that I would try to take my daughters shopping in a city about 35 minutes away. I had some strong anxiety driving on the way over there, so most of the way I was just trying to concentrate on deep breathing and relaxing. I did pretty well while shopping, though I had a few short, dizzy, freak-out moments...with deep breathing I was able to recover decently quickly and without anyone noticing. On the way back, I had about a 20 minute timespan of complete bliss...feeling normal even briefly is a blessing. Now, back at home, I was watching tv with the kids and started the anxiety/ panic issues...light headed, muscle weakness, anxious feelings, "what if" thoughts, etc. At the moment I am feeling decently calm. It just seems like this never-ending cycle of good and bad and there's no true way to balance it for long. I am thankful that I was able to get out and go shopping with no really big panic event, but it's so frustrating when you just don't know what to expect from one moment to the next.