i'm finding myself totally overwhelmed at work today. i posted yesterday about
the big project i've been working that is wrapping up this week...trying not to stress over the "what if's" about
that project that are popping into my head.
at my job, i am also a supervisor, and i'm having one of those days when it seems like everyone is coming to me and asking me to problem solve for them. i recognize that while i'm a good leader in a lot of ways, my anxiety makes it very difficult for me to handle issues that come up and require supervisor intervention (for this reason, i am looking to get out of a supervisory position). but today it's piddly little things that i feel like my staff should be able to handle and just don't want to, so they dump it on me. i'm trying to be firm with my boundaries and ask them to at least try to work out the issue before coming to me, but today is just one of those days where they insist that they have tried everything...i used to have days like this very frequently, probably 3 or 4 days out of 5 every week, which i know has exacerbated my anxiety and driven me to feel very burnt out in my job. at least things have improved and i don't have days like this nearly so often now.
i want to put my "do not disturb" sign out on my door, which i have done before on days like this, just to get through. i also plan to immediately do my daily meditation the very instant i get home today. i'm just dreading the next knock on my door because i know it will be another employee who says "i really need your help with something..." i have to focus on getting through this minute, then the next, then the next. 5:00 will be here, and then i can go home and relax... :)
thanks for letting me vent!