It's been a while since I last posted. In the beginning of April, at the recommendation of my ENT but against by GI doctor's advice, I finally had surgery for my acid reflux. I'm still on a modified diet; I can't have bread, most meat, or anything carbonated, but I'll live. I'm burping fairly frequently, but I no longer can feel food or liquid coming back up into my throat.
The bad news is that I'm still experiencing these spasms in my throat. My surgeon thinks it will go away on it's own eventually, but I'm tired of playing the waiting game. I still have some klonopin left over from the prescript
ion my GP wrote for me last fall, so last night I decided to try an experiment, as my throat was really bothering me. Instead of taking the .5 mg dose I was told to take, I took 1 mg. I know, I know, I did not follow doctor's orders. But within 15 minutes, the lump in my throat was gone, as if it had never existed. I was so relieved that I cried. Then I thought about
something my GI doc said over a year ago. "I could give you muscle relaxants, but I don't want to do that." So I suffered unnecessarily for 16 months because he didn't want to do something that could have helped me. It made me so upset and angry that I used my pillow as a punching bag for a few minutes.
This week I have a follow-up with my surgeon. I know prescribing this kind of medication is not exactly in his lane, but I have an established relationship with him and I refuse to see another psychiatrist for a physical ailment who is going to look at me like I'm a drug seeker because the drug that makes me feel better happens to be a controlled substance. The idea that people who need these kinds of medications can't get them because other people abuse the system really is absurd and aggravating. What do you say to a doctor to convince them that you aren't one of these people? Seems ridiculous to say, "I know you don't know me, but I have no intention of abusing this drug. I've never taken any kind of illegal drugs or so much as smoked a cigarette...."
So... I guess I'm happy that I found something that works but worried that I'm not going to have access to it. If that's the case, I guess it's on to experimenting with herbal remedies (which can be scary in it's own way).
Post Edited (KitKat880) : 5/13/2013 7:40:11 PM (GMT-6)