Had a highly charged weekend. Been weaning off lex for over a month now and Ive had so many sx, to name a few: lethargic/no energy, dizzy, nauseous, skin rash, amped anxiety, depressed feeling, endless ruminations.. The good news is most of these have already subsided :). Am at 7.5mg now and will stay here a while.
Over the weekend, i started to feel quite odd again, like i couldnt place myself where i was - I was in the hospital to see my derma for skin allergy. Afterwhich I saw my therapist whom I havent seen in one year and a lot of issues were discussed.
The odd feeling basically lasted me all weekend and culminated in a panic situation while visiting family. I excused myself and went for a drive and it was at that point that I recall soemthing I had read in Edmund Bourne's book on what to do during a panic attack (Of course while this was happening i wasnt sure if i was having a panic attack), was to get mad at your anxiety as anxiety and anger cannot co exist at the same time. I found myself shouting my guts out at anxiety!!
After some time, I felt so much better! I think for once I stared down anxiety and won. I didnt try to appease or show it respect. I was able to truly enjoy the family function when I went back in.
This morning though, I feel really exhausted. I guess its all the adrenalin surge from the weekend but I aint complaining i am ok :)