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Scaredy Cat
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   Posted 10/27/2012 7:48 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Everyone! I am 28 yrs old. I've been living with health anxiety and I am a huge hypochondriac and germaphobe! Oh and I'm scared of doctors.
I have been dealing with this for about ten years, but have been scared of doctors and hospitals for as long as I can remember.
Everything that feels abnormal to me is a sign I'm dying of something. I always look up my symptoms online and self diagnose.
I just recently went to the doctor because I had a cold. I feel like I should have never gone. I was put on an antibiotic and the side effects are awful which in turn made me think I was dying or developing c-diff or kidneys are shutting down or heart attack. My mind just wonders. I looked up how long the side effects can last and it says up to 72 hrs. I wish they would go away now. My cold is already gone but now I'm dealing with this problem.
My anxiety has been so bad at times I never want to leave the house I'm scared I'll have a heart attack in public or pass out or have a seizure even though I've never been diagnosed with anything. Only doctor I regularly see is my gyno because I'm on birth control.
I always have high blood pressure at the doctors office cause I'm so nervous about being there. I take my blood pressure like ten times a day and keep a journal. Anytime it gets high I get really anxious which makes it higher.
I really make myself nervous which leads to more nervousness an new symptoms. I get dizzy a lot, headaches, back aches, stomachache, I grind my teeth in my sleep and during the day, I have heart palps a lot, the list is endless.
Another thing I worry about is my weight. I am not overweight. Im 5'1" and 112lbs. Some days I feel thinner and I think why am I losin weight without trying it must be cancer. Then when I feel I have gained weight when I should be losing I think maybe my thyroid is out of wack. I am just a nervous wreck all the time and it effects my work. I have to leave work so frequently cause I feel ill.
One bad thing is my husband doesn't understand so it makes it more difficult to deal with.
I refuse to take medication. I tried Zoloft when I was 20 and it was horrible. I hate Meds even antibiotics which has me really messed up right now. I knew I shouldn't have taken them. I barely take Advil or Pepto, only when it's absolutely necessary.
I have found the only way to calm myself down is the bathtub. I sit in the bathtub for hrs at a time when I need to. Nothing else seems to help.
I really want to get a cat scan and MRI to make sure everything is ok but I don't want to do blood work. Last time I did blood work was 5 yrs ago at the height of my anxiety and everything was normal an I blacked out during it.
I would really like to do a sleep study as well because my dreams are so realistic and I have nightmares almost every single night since I was a kid. It's awful.
Right now I am in a bad place and I want to crawl out of this hypochondriac nightmare!

Scaredy Cat
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   Posted 10/27/2012 7:49 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Barboo and welcome! (I moved your post to its own thread so that it could be seen better!)

I am sorry that you are dealing with this awful health anxiety!:( It is miserable, I know.

You are certainly not alone here...many of us deal with this issue and understand.

You mentioned medication...may I ask if you have ever tried therapy for treatment of these issues? Many members, including myself have found great relief in this.  It is as easy as asking your doctor for a referral to a therapist who is familiar with treating your kind of annxiety.

Please feel welcomed and know that we are here to listen and care...so post anytime with questions/concerns/sharing!

Talk to you soon:)

Scaredy Cat
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"Courage is not the abscence of fear, it is feeling afraid and doing it anyway!"

"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles...it empties today of its strength."
Corrie Ten Boom

Panic Syndrome recovery due to CBT

Post Edited (Scaredy Cat) : 10/27/2012 8:52:30 AM (GMT-6)


Barboo1234
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   Posted 10/27/2012 8:20 AM (GMT -7)   
I have tried therapy. The first lady I went to for about a year and she was ok and i liked talking to, but she retired and the second on I went to it never really helped or went anywhere. These were both about 8 years ago.
How do you find a good therapist/psychologist? I've looked online in my areas and there isn't many to choose from and usually if you call it takes a month or longer to get in to see them for the initial visit. Any recommendations? I really just want to get my life back on track and out of the shadows of hiding from my fears and health issues.

Michael In NY
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   Posted 10/27/2012 10:14 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Barboo. I don't have health anxiety. In January, I became deeply depressed which included anxiety. I don't take medication. The following is what I focused on and it has brought my depression and anxiety under control.

What you eat influences the balance of chemical produced and released in your brain. Do A Search: Foods for Anxiety and Foods To Avoid For Anxiety. Include the good foods in your diet that you like and avoid the bad foods. What I like may not necessarily be what you like so I won't discuss my diet.

Vitamins, minerals, herbs, enzymes are common supplements used to improved mental health. Visit your local health food store and look for a high quality multi vitamin supplement. I would suggest one that is liquid versus capsules. Also take each day Magnesium Glycinate (400 mg) and Krill Oil Capsules (omega 3, 6). Also consider Theanine Serene with Reflora which contains 6 ingredients that have a calming effect.

Exercise: I like walking especially on sunny days but do whatever exercise you enjoy.

Relaxation Techniques. I haven't done this but I understand deep breathing, yoga and meditation help.

You may also want to consider a Whole Food Product that contains fruits, vegetables, green foods, enzymes, mushrooms, amino acids and antioxidants. You take a scoop each day with juice or water.

Scaredy Cat
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   Posted 10/27/2012 4:23 PM (GMT -7)   
Barboo,

The best way to find a therapist may be to ask your doctor for a referral. Medical professionals network, and your doctor may even be able to get you in faster that just 'cold calling' a therapist from the phonebook. It is worth a shot.:)

Also, even if you have to be on a waiting list...get on it! That is one step closer than you are at the moment.:)...and somtimes things open up faster than estimated due to cancellations, ect.

In the meantime, you could check out our Resource Guide on our main page (1st post) for some great self-help ideas to at least get you started in the right direction for some relief!

Keep posting with us as well...it does help.

S.C.
Moderator:Anxiety/Panic

"Courage is not the abscence of fear, it is feeling afraid and doing it anyway!"

"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles...it empties today of its strength."
Corrie Ten Boom

Panic Syndrome recovery due to CBT
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