Posted 11/24/2012 4:56 PM (GMT -6)
Over the past few months, I have been dealing with numerous stressful things going on in my life. At times it almost feels as if these stressors have lined themeselves up in a row, each taking their turn at having a go at me. Prior to this, I had been dealing with the usual anxiety, OCD, panic attacks, depression, etc but after a few major stressful events, it seems like everything changed and now even simple/normal things in life (ie; appointments, paying bills, etc) have become stressful to me. It's as if I have now become hyper-sensitive to any type of situation that is (or might be) even a tiny bit stressful to me.
The dreams are the worst though. I feel somewhat "normal" in the evenings and at night but always have these very stressfull early morning dreams where I am performing some impossible and very arduous task (searching, escaping, sorting, arranging things, creating new things, getting confused about where things go, losing or forgetting things, etc). Also, I can go to bed at midnight but still wake up at about 1:00PM (thats 13 hours of sleep!). When I finally do get up I am dazed, spaced out and exhausted and feel miserable until that evening again. These are stressfull dreams (not really nightmares) and it has been almost constant for months now.
The odd thing is that the dreams I have don't have any basis in reality or might be loosly based on some real-life issue that was already resolved a long time ago. Even after I am partially awake I still find myself thinking they are real and start fretting about how I am going to resolve them. After I fully wake up I spend lots of time trying to interpret the dream and do things during the day to try to make the "bad things" that caused the dream to "go away".
I have tried excersize, different meds to help me relax (Ativan, Atarax, Attenolol, etc) but for the most part, every single moring is like this. It's horrible. Even when I take no meds, the result is the same. I also have Tourette's and wonder if the head/neck ticks have caused damage and my brain is building new "connections" at night and thats what I'm feeling/experiencing. I also have Cervical Arthirits with a bone spur (maybe a pinched nerve?). I sometimes wake up with a pressure feeling in my head too or have a very low-grade (usually non-painfull) headache but maybe it's my sinusitis. I just don't even know anymore.
I've had all kinds of scans, bloodwork, at EEG, seen a Neurologist, etc over the years. Not sure what is causing all of this. Can anyone relate to any of this please?.
Thanks so much, Seth