Posted 3/7/2013 10:25 AM (GMT -6)
I know what you mean about going from normal to this. When I think about all the things I did, without hesitation or fear, just last year, I get depressed. Now, if I do push myself and drive two miles, it's this big event and I am so relieved when I get home. I feel ridiculous.
I always suspect this has something to do with hormones but no hormonal abnormalities have shown up in my tests.
For one thing, all this started happening to me around the same time my period got lighter and a little more irregular, and I gained weight for the first time in my life. I usually feel dizzy and get heart palps right before my period now too. There is a thread about panic/menstral cycle: https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=9&m=897349
Although hormonal doesn't mean it has to happen only during your period.It seems like there is something about motherhood that can set off anxiety.
My mother said after she had babies she started getting anxiety attacks, that improved as we kids got older. (Mine is the opposite... its happening now when my daughter is 12). She also said after menapause she started getting clausraphobia, has a hard time sitting in theaters, things like that, and has to take valium to get in an MRI machine, etc. I never really realized she had anxiety until she told me though, because she still goes out and does things. I think there is some hormonal connection, especially for women, that just hasn't been researched or figured out yet.
motherhood is demanding. how many/how old are your kids? it helped me once when my mom told me how many times while raising me and my brother she thought to herself,"well, this isn't fun... this isn't what I had in mind!" but of course at the same time, you love your children.
I know you are needed, but I think a get away every now and then is a good idea. we're only human. is there anyone, a friend, a sibling, a grandparent, anyone, that could "take you away" for the day or a few days? even if your husband is not too keen on the idea, maybe if it was to "help aunt sally out for a few days" or a friend going through a breakup and you're going to take her for a "spa day"... could get you a little quiet and relaxation. or, if the thought of going out makes you anxious, maybe your kids could spend a weekend w/grandparents while you and your husband get some quiet time together... even if it just means hanging out at home, to sleep in and watch non-animated movies!