Posted 4/25/2013 8:17 AM (GMT -7)
I'm sure some of you can relate to having insomnia, much as a
result of anxiety.
In my life from time to time I have had insomnia, which of course
is exacerbated at stressful times in my life. Well, now is such a
period, having to deal with underemployment, money and other
When I had more margin to work with, or even better when I was
in a position of strength - which was at this point a few years back,
I did not take action.
I know I can't go back, and waiting has left me in a position where
Im left in no mans land as far as getting a viable job.
This is serious stuff - I have a family, relationship very impacted
by this, of course. Last night, I found myself exhausted from my
not sleeping the night before and rather than interacting with my
family, just wanting to lay in bed and escape everything.
I don't know if I'm depressed, but I have stopped exercising and
don't feel motivated to do much. I know this is due to the pressure
I feel, it's sucking out my life and spirit.
My sleep is inconsistent, if I had to be at a job early in the morning,
I don't know how I would deal with it. I either wake up early in the
am, can't fall asleep, or eventually pass out from the resulting tiredness.
Here is my situation in short: had a good deal going awhile back
but as we know , you either have to change with the times, stay
one step ahead, and definitely be aggressive, as well as smart in
the business world.
Having generalized anxiety, and social anxiety - at times, while
not a excuse, is something I realize that has made my road tougher.
This can come disguised as being apathetic, procrastination, and
just letting things go. In plain English, if your fearful all the time
it's hard to keep n the race!
So, I have literally lost years, potential opportunities, and god
knows how much money. The thing is when you get to a certain point you are so aware of all this it can grind you to a halt - that's where I am.
Meds, are not the answer, as eventually I build a tolerance, and
they don't work.
I don't see anyone, and the tpsts I tried sometime ago, I did not
vibe with. Anyways, talking about all this I find makes me feel worse.
I am not used to dealing with life without a little financial cushion and its weighing on me.
I am keeping active working evenings, but it's a band - aid, just
money for now.
Always, I can go on and on , but for now I have to do my best!
Thanks and best to all.