I have come here from time to time the past few years for other conditions, but this anxiety has really got me by the tail right now. I am just in a state of almost chronic panic the last few days. I feel mentally like I am going insane every night. The attacks hit around 5pm and don't subside at all for several hours. I manage my days ok, but my evenings are almost unbearable.
I am going to my first counseling session on Wednesday and Thursday I am going back to my Internist who wanted to put me on a low dose Zoloft back in April, but I resisted because I have a meds phobia. I have taken .5mg of Xanax the last two days just to keep me from just losing it. I guess what I am looking for is some reassurance. Meds and therapy are ok, right? See, I have talked myself into a anxiety pretzel over treatment.
My wife has been great. Talking me through my toughest times, which have been every day lately. I just needed to write and blather a little here. Thanks to everyone for listening.