To end it, First I guess you should try answering them on your own. After you find the answers to your questions, you should might want to stop asking yourself more questions about
your very existence here on earth or how a brain "normally or perfectly" works. Maybe what you're doing is normal to you, but you just can't accept the fact that this is your ideal self and prefer another "normal" self. This is how I answer your questions.
1. How I am walking?
Sometimes my legs get wobbly I can't even walk straight. Humans can't walk straight without a visible guidepoint like the sun or the moon or a mountain top in sight, we seem to go around in circles without them. Do I look funny when I walk like I'm drunk? Well I don't care, as long as I'm able to walk, I'll thankful everyday for it. So on my way now.
2. How I am communicating with others
Well I posted my insight here. Will others read everything I have to say? Will they care? Will others think I'm no good? Well this is me. I just dropped by to say whatever I want. Glad there are people here who knows how to listen and it's so good to take their advice. Sure we have our differences but I'm fine right here.
3. How I am sitting
I'm slightly slouching. Got to sit erect. Slouching is bad posture. Have to get up in awhile, legs need more blood flow. So onto the next question.
4. How I am doing things I am suppose to do
I'm suppose to get out a lot and find a job to earn money like everyone else. But I'm not doing this right. darn this anxiety. I have to cope harder for this!
5. How I am thinking
Right now it seems I haven't lost my mind just yet. Am I still being rational or irrational? I guess it's not for me to decide.
6. How I am looking in particular direction
Well my goal is to overcome anxiety as soon as possible. Shouldn't waste time worrying and dwelling in my own absurd thoughts.
7. What are my desires
I desire not to be a burden to anyone and everyone I love. Got to get this thing out of my shoulder as soon as I can.
8. All confusion of emotions
I fear most of the time about
my health. A fear that doesn't really exist. I get frustrated and depressed sometimes. I get easily irritated when I'm feeling weird. There are days I have my highs and lows? Isn't this what it's like to be normal? Well someone out there definitely feels the way I do.
9. How I am remembering things
I am remembering things just fine. Just how I remember how easy things were before. How I remember all my fears and absurd thoughts each day. How I remember all the positive things people have to say here in HW.
10. How I am seeing things
Nobody is perfect. I'm just a nobody therefore I'm perfect! lol (positive thoughts)
11. Questioning my every move, action and thoughts
Will I give a helpful advice to someone by posting this? I wouldn't know until I click on the submit button right? so here it goes...... ......Life goes on! Tomorrow is a different day with different normal thoughts. So on my way now to fetch my wife.
Post Edited (Jojanxiety) : 6/24/2013 5:30:51 AM (GMT-6)