Ok I know this might sound histerical to everyone who read my post about
3-4 weeks ago in which I was describing how terrible and anxious I was feeling.....but the past 2-3 weeks I have been doing pretty well. I think a lot of that stress was brought on from beginning to get involved in a relationship with a co-worker. I am still seeing my co-worker, and I think I am starting to get comfortable and used to where it is going. A lot of my what if questions that were driving me nuts are calming down the more we get to know one another.
So......before I started this relationship I was feeling well for a couple of months. Aside from that first week or two of my current relationship, I have been feeling pretty good. I am currently taking 20 mg of Lexapro a day. I have started to develop really bad cases of dry mouth lately that are causing my tongue to turn white. I also have very little satisfaction/feeling from sex while on this medicine as well. Granted I have been on this for awhile now, but it only became an issue recently.
I'm not stupid though, I know that this is helping me a little bit. I believe that events in my life are also contributing towards my better moods as well though. Work has been going great, and I am closing in on finally graduating with my bachelors. Everything is going awesome!
I'm thinking of cutting myself down to 10mg per day. I mentioned trying to come off meds last time with my p doc and he said that if I wanted to that we could, but he reminded me that I have tried this before and wound up returning to the meds. Although that is true, I think right now I have a lot of things going good for myself....I think things may be different this go 'round. What do you guys think?
I just get frustrated when I think of the first 25 years of my life.....how I didn't need any medicine or therapy then. Frustrates me that now I rely upon this stuff. I know I can't stop cold turkey, and I honestly don't want to stop completely anytime soon. But my goal ever since I started with my anxiety troubles, was to eventually be able to get to a point where I don't need any medicine anymore.