Posted 10/2/2013 8:26 PM (GMT -6)
Hello to all of the new ppl on Healing Well my name is Dawn are you can call me Soul,Iam a 28 year old christian woman who stands on faith&trust in the power of prayer. I wanted to re-share my story with hope that my pain may help someone who is going through hard,see even in my ups&downs my desire has always been to let my darkness be a light to someone else. And as I encourage others I also encourage myself&if anybody know your fight trust me I do,but know that some where in the darkness there is a brighter day. Because with every dark day there is a brighter night,I have been fighting anxiety for 14 years yes thats right since I was 14years old&this was in 99 when I learn what death was. I had family that went off ti the next life but it didn't hit me until 99,this was the year I lost two Aunts five days apart&my dad& grandpa some days apart&my grandmother(it was seeing her no longer here that did it for me). She was my bestfriend&I cried&cried but my mom wouldn't let me cry like my soul was in need of,my world was torn&a part of me was now gone. In all this I was dealing with sickness&had surgery a few times&I was scared to death I wouldn't make it out alive,and when I was bless to I was like thank you Lord. Few years later after dreaming many nights the same dream seeing my other grandmother go on,I lost her both my grandmothers where my rock and my stronger. That year I gave up on life&wouldn't move from bed are eat lije I should,I was 19 &without hope and was tired of pain&depress to the max but my mom saying I will not die&pushing me&pulling me out of bed was the backbone God called her to be. And I learn I had to keep on moving inspite of&yes Ive been in a few psyc hospitals&treatment centers,on meds after meds rush to the hospital a few times&had few near death scares&felt trap in two worlds. I don't like death are dead things&just became able to speak out loud with no shame for this,but learning with each day to except a lil better as I find the beauty in each day& find good in the hard times. And yes it get real hard at time and tears Ive had to cry but have came to see prayer changes things,and God is real&lives and is a strong tower so let me encourage you to keep fighting&pushing for your good&trust in God.