I'm really glad I found this forum as I am a long-time sufferer of anxiety and panic disorder. I am recently struggling with my hypochondria more than ever before. I just don't know how to cope anymore.
I have been to my doctor's office many times since I have been transferred to his care (When I was about
16, I am now 22) and he knows me by name, face, and is always very understanding (Thank god!).
However, recently, since coming off the birth control pill I've noticed differences that are causing me great panic. I bruise quite easily and am just starting to notice it (Or it has just started?) and rather than go to the doctor to ask about
iron deficiency or something like that I have been obsessively looking up leukemia and leukemia symptoms.
I have no symptoms of anything and am just concerned about
the bruising. I know I'm being irrational and unreasonable but it is taking over my life.
It's gotten to the point where I'll be shopping with friends and see a shirt or dress I like that is kind of expensive and tell myself I shouldn't buy it because I'll probably be dead soon and can't enjoy it.
I am really starting to feel my anxiety is taking a turn for the worse. I've been fairly good with coping in recent years (Since meeting my now husband) but I feel that it is just going downhill fast and I don't know what to do anymore. For the last year I've thought I've had MS, ALS, Leukemia, Lymphoma, Meningitis, HIV, Brain cancer, Muscular dystrophy, blood infections, herpes of the mouth, and oh my I can't even remember the other ones that would pop up for a day or two and disappear. It's starting to affect my everyday life and I can't take it anymore.
I am even too scared to go see my doctor about
the bruising in case he tells me I'm dying. I wouldn't even go in when I had a sore vein on my leg, I waited a good 3 months before I made an appointment! (And it turned out to be superficial swelling!!!)
I'm just wondering if any of you hypochondriacs have any advice on coping with the day to day worries? I saw a therapist for years and saw no improvement and I don't wanna live at my doctor's office either!
Please any hypochondriacs out there???