Posted 12/11/2013 4:21 AM (GMT -7)
Why I can go from one simple thing like getn up to go to the bathroom at 4:00 am to use it,to getn back in the bad not thinking about much of anything&out of no where comes deep panic I hate these attacks&most of the time when that happen it is like I can feel something wrong some where&on me comes the heavy burden real sick&tired of this. I mean enough is enough&I now put my foot down this being ok one min&out of no where boom,and I wouldn't wish it on my worse enemy and Iam screaming at the top of my lungs to God why me?
Help me understand this Lord I mean I got clothes,shoes,food,nice things&I have my music&stuff I like to do for fun, I with truth don't need anything else but one thing&that is peace. I need peace I need peace so that I may do all the things I want&need to do to make my mark,without fear are doubt standing in my way&Iam way tired of searching for peace I just need it to find me. Iam under so much stress with worry,of what is going on with my health&what could it be with truth with not enough funds to find out because I have to pay most of everything out my pocket with bills up to my neck&if you could see the number Iam at you would want to prbly cry for me. This is like old news already so I wish this will let me be but sad part is these days,one can't find a true doctor anymore that care about your health with truth&money last they all about money everyone of them and thats just my thoughts I will be searching for a doctor today. That can give real advice/meds and not the water down oh this will go away just take these meds are we can't give you this because of this,such lies and I need true real help not no qack that aint even a rwal doctor just a NP. I want to see a doctor that knows more&how to level my main problem that cause most of this my dang thyroid problem,wish I knew way back then this would give me hell later. I with truth want to be able one day to live wothout meds, that some of them do nothing but cause more problems on top of one a person like me already has.