Posted 2/25/2014 1:29 AM (GMT -6)
Sometimes the docs aren't sure if being depressed makes us anxious or being anxious makes us depressed...I think it works both ways and sometimes, they are just "best friends" with each other, so like to stick together a lot!
When I was deeply depressed (the dark clinical kind), there was no way I could hide it. It took all my willpower to make myself get up out of the bed. I'd sit in the living room, pretending to be interested in whatever tv show was on, but really wanted to go back to bed. Mom would look at me and ask me to please smile for her. I'd think, you try smiling when you feel dead inside! but being the "good daughter", I'd paste a fake smile on my mouth. I couldn't make it reach my eyes...and mom would get upset b/c she felt so helpless. Then she'd get sort of angry, as if I was being sad on purpose. She knew better of course, but it's very very hard on your family to see you so sad! It makes them sad too! Maybe they do notice but are handling it by just trying to ignore it or they try to be stoic about it. I dunno. What I do know is that it's hard...for you and those that love you.
I hope you have a better day tomorrow!