Posted 4/3/2014 2:43 AM (GMT -6)
Last night I had a 30 minute telephone interview which would determine whether or not therapy was right for me, and if so, what type of therapy. (I think that's correct!) I was very nervous and when it came to one question I kind of refused to answer at first as, due to her 'duty of care', I was worried that she would have to tell my doctor or even worse my parents about something that I did waaaaay back in my high school days! I felt I couldn't tell her because I was worried that she'd think I still did it or still had a problem with it, or that I could be prone to doing it again! Which I wouldn't! I know I wouldn't. I told her about it in the end and expressed that I don't have a problem with it any more. However, because of that I felt I couldn't tell her of other things, darker things that have gone through my mind which I know I wouldn't act upon but it appears quite often and can make me feel very down. I couldn't tell her about those things as I was worried that she'd had to tell someone, due to the 'duty of care'. So, I kept them hidden.
I digress! She's put me on a waiting list for CBT, though! Yay! I can't wait to go, I just have to wait for about 6 weeks and then I can finally start getting better.
Thank you for reading! <3