Good evening everyone! Hope all the mommies had a good mothers day!
I have an exciting week, my daughter's 9th birthday AND my ultrasound to finally possibly find out what I am having on Friday. And have a busy weekend coming up as well. I got an A on my test today and only 2 classses left until start externship in July! Going to register for my baby shower tomorrow (exciting!), I have alot to look forward to, but yet today I wake up shakey, very anxious, with a headache, feeling very nauseas, could tell the heart flutters were going to start because of how I was feeling, and of course they did, and just anxiety ridden for nooo reason. Got home from school, took a 3 hour much needed nap as getting up at 530a.m. for school is veryyy exhausting right now!, and felt even worse when I woke up. It is so frustrating anymore. Wish I could kick anxiety in the BUTT for GOOD. Even though I make myself think around the anxiety, the physical symptoms take over and it's just simply bothersome, I cant relax. These are the times I miss taking my Xanax, as that is really the ONLY thing that helps me relax, and actually feel comfortable. I forget that feeling right now. I cant even describe how MAD and upset it makes me feel because I am just completely over it and ready for it to be done, and out of my life forever. Dont think I have ever been over something SO much in my life! Now I know the reason anxiety and depression run together. Feeling this way could make anyone feel depressed! Its horrible. My body just shakes for no reason, really seems like I have something wrong. Hard to believe anxiety causes all of this.. it is the root to all of my problems..literally!! Its a real bummer.
Hope everyone is having a great night.!