THANK-YOU for this reminder. It's ALL true. Even in my current battle w/depression & anxiety, I know this is true. It takes work and that can seem insurmountable when you feel very down or hopeless but I just know it's a "thin blue line" between the anxiety &/or depression and wellness. I know for a fact if not for my current struggle, and should any of the addons they've tried with my current AD had "just worked" like the few times in my life I've experienced this, I would not have LEARNED.
I am a "stuffer." I don't like to feel scared, sad, _insert any negative feeling_ so I stuff and distract. It may just take one tiny drop to overflow that "filling teacup." Then I'm like what the heck, where did this come from and freak out.
It comes from years of habits of stuffing (literally and mentally. I've used food as a crutch for many years). I didn't realize til NOW (nothing like a breakdown kicking you in the behind), that my coping skills needed polished. My therapist said "what did you learn in the past when you went through a rough time, took a med and it worked right away?".... I said- mentally, not much.. I went back to my old ways, being bandaided by a med w/o doing the work of figuring out or resolving WHY I got there...
I have a bachelors degree in social work and psychology. Isn't it funny we know better but we can be our own worst enemy. "When we know better we do better." Maya Angelou
Thank you for the reminder Kitt. xoxoxo
Married 10 yrs, 2 spoiled dogs, age 43, generally happy, creative, giving, non judgemental, positive, 3 episodes of anxiety/depression since 1993, mild agoraphobia, worrier, humorous, great friend, creative, vintage art collector, neurotic, love animals and (most) people
60mg Cymbalta (since 2008)
10mg Buspar twice/day (since May 2014)
Xanax PRN (since Feb 2014)
Amlodipine Be****pril (2008)