Hello. My name is Nick, I'm 19 and up until just over a month ago I was living a normal and happy life.
It all started when I was pressured into doing a drug with some buddies that really freaked me out. The "trip" wasn't all that bad other than I had some really deep, depressing thoughts that are lingering to this day. After that night I had a couple normal weeks again until I went to a movie with a few friends(Spider-Man). After the movie I began having these thoughts about
life again. The next day I ended up having an anxiety attack and called my parents to come get me from college. I delt with a couple finals and made my way through a couple weeks of work with extreme so called "anxiety symptoms". The scariest and most common ones I'm having are 1.fear of going crazy 2.unreal feelings (dreamlike) 3. Overwhelmed by the world and everything in it(questioning how my measly life is important) 4. Vivid dreams 5. Scary random thoughts 6. Rapid heart beat. 7. No desire to do anything as if it's all pointless in the long run. Along with a few others that don't seem to alarm me so much.
I do have history of being obsessive over my health and social anxiety.
I'm constantly reminded that I haven't had any symptoms of disorders such as schizophrenia but find it extremely hard to believe at times.
I've seeked help and seem to have a few decent hours on some days but nothing seems to fix this. I've been told to devalue the symptoms which I've tried but makes me feel like I'm trying to ignore my craziness. I'm currently on a lose dose of risperdal which seems to have no affect. I've also downloaded and read A Life At Last by Paul David which is good for my completely low points.
The best way I find to calm me down is by talking about
it and praying. It seems like a miracle that I've lasted this long and the only reasons I have is for my family and faith. I understand there is no quick fix to this "anxiety" but if anyone who has gone through this or knows ways to help would comment Id appreciate all help. This seems endless. Also sorry for any grammar errors since I'm writing this from my phone
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