I have probably been on at least half of the AD meds manufactured at one time or another and I did not tolerate Prozac and that is where the rub is for all of us.
We read where others did awesome on a med and when we try it we are unable to tolerate the same med.
At my worst (2006) I had a major depressive issue and high anxiety but never felt like I was going crazy.
I just wanted all the horrible feelings to stop. I would pray and beg my God to make it all stop. I would repeat, " I want the real me back!" Funny thing about the real me - it is who you are right now, not who you were 2,3 or 5 years ago.
I just wanted all the horrible feelings to stop.
I share this from time to time so I will post it here for you.
antidepressant was Elavil which caused me to have some tachycardia
so it was changed to Nortriptyline. Nortriptyline is the one drug
that worked the longest, from 1982 - 2004. I had some mini-breaks
and then my Dr. tried me on Paxil, Prozac and Zoloft which I had
side effects from and eventually went back on the Nortriptyline ,
however, it never did work like it had the first time around.
saw a therapist and my Psychiatrist which joined my care team in 2006.
the new generation drugs, Lexapro, Cymbalta ( which worked fairly
good for awhile but I was overdosed on this drug and my BP kept falling
so we moved on to Norpramine which gave me an awful rash all over
my body so that was stopped.
Along came Serazone
- which my Dr. accidently over-dosed me on as he substituted mg per mg and I
got a whopping dose, ended up in the ER and an overnight stay in the
hospital. But He apologized. <!--[if gte vml 1]>
So on to Seroquel
which was way to sedating for a person working full time.
By now I had
gained weight which I felt was due to the antidepressants so my Psych. Dr. let
me try Wellbutrin and
I was literally walking into walls and having severe hand tremors.
Next came Celexa
combined with Lamictal ( a mood stabilizer) . The mood
stabilizer worked some but not worth the possible horrible rash a person could
develop so I went with Celexa and Trazodone which did pretty good until
the information was released that nobody over a certain age should be on more
than 20 mg and I was on 40 mg. Of course I was over that age and had to have an
EKG and decreasing the med to 20 mg did not work. about this time was when I
got sick in January of 2012 and my doctors (2 of them) dx the
symptoms as my depression so my Psych. Dr. insisted I needed to be on Zoloft
again and ramped up the dose to the max - I never felt good on this med and
with each increase I just felt worse.
said no more Zoloft - I want to go on Effexor XR with my Trazodone
and Buspar for anxiety. This is my current
cocktail: Trazodone 300mg per day, Effexor XR, and Buspar 30mg twice daily.
As far as
Benzos, I have been on Xanax, Ativan and Valium. My Psychiatrist had
a fit when she saw my PCP had me on 4 mg of Ativan per day so one of the first
things we did was wean me off of Ativan very slowly - 6 months - and now I have
some Valium to help my anxiety.
I hope this helps you see the road can be long when trying to find the right medication but once you find one that helps you life feels so much better.
I never dreamed I would be a person who need medication for any mental health problems but like all disorders nothing keeps us immune from being dx with Anxiety/Depression. The hard part is other people do not understand our disorder and tell you to "get a grip". You will never hear me speak those words.
Sending you lots of good vibes for a wonderful day.
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