Good Morning and know I am here for you. I am glad you brought up your son - can you share with us how he is doing and where he is at with treatments, check ups ETC?
I know 2 years feels like forever as I am coming up on my 2 year anniversary of my cancer dx. Being humans it takes us a long time to heal from such traumatic events in our lives and I know you have been pushed beyond the limits where most people would want to give up but here you are still talking with us and asking for help. I am here to support you and wish I had a magic answer re medications - time, patience and therapy will serve you best and having a good cry is good for your soul - it let's out your feelings of sadness and frustration.
"And whatever you ask in prayer, you will receive, if you have faith.”
Keeping you in my prayers,