Janet- I too agree with what everyone said, including that if we all confessed, like you so eloquently and bravely did, we all share the same story.
I do at least. I'm 43 & frankly like you, I was afraid to have children... I was lucky my husband didn't want children either so it was a good match. But- I was afraid of my anxiety. I'm the baby of 5 kids and Ive many Nieces & nephews so the pressure was off of me. Regret doesn't consume me, luckily I never had baby fever (except in my early 20's w/first bf) but it never came back.
Something my therapist said recently when I told him I feel like a big baby, scared & unsure of life- he said "what makes you feel like you're unique with these thoughts...we all still have the child inside & when we're struggling, we can feel like a scared child on the inside." Does this sound familiar?
So- I'm just here to tell you that you 'ain't the only one. Not trying to diminish your pain by saying that, just that I very much understand.
I would love to be your friend in person. I think you're intersting, intelligent and fun. I love your writing here whether it's needing advice or giving advice. I look forward to your posts & replies, no matter the topic.
Sending you much love, understanding & compassion!♥️
Anxiety & Depression
"We could never learn to be brave and patient, if there were only joy in the world."
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