As usual, I am here to support you!
Please allow me to share my personal feelings with you! Let me say in advance that this is said with much love and concern!
If you read my posts when I first joined HW you will see an individual who was scared, lonely, uneducated with this disorder, and for the most part - just negative in general.
Here's the "but"...BUT I have applied everything I have learned towards fighting and managing this disorder and have truly and honestly changed my life for the better - I couldn't have done it without my Lord and Savior, my wife, my team of medical doctors, my therapist, and Ofcourse my friends & family here on HW!
Looking back I don't know how my poor wife put up with me! Our relationship was centered around my disorder and she did not deserve the negative vibe I was putting out - constant turmoil. She was releived when I committed myself to treatment and was even happier when it started working!
As a friend, can I tell you what really got me started in the right direction with my treatment??? I forced myself to "think happy", to be a more positive husband and father to my wife and kids, to put all my trust and faith into my treatment and that it will, in fact, work! In other words, I completely changed my attitude.
Back in those days, I really felt I had an unknown condition and no one was taking me serious! I felt I was dying and they didn't even care! A nurse told me something that really
opened my eyes and changed my view towards my treatment. She said "we are human beings and our bodies are far from perfect. We will always experience certain "dents" and "dings" such as minor aches and pains." I was complaining over the way I felt and she said this is just a fact of life and kindly encouraged me to focus solely on treating my anxiety. Once I did this, my life changed right before me!
I have come to the realization that I am no longer that young kid who could work and play around the clock. I am 34 years old and my body is not that "smooth running machine" it once was. It doesn't mean that something is wrong with me or that I am dying! It simply means I am getting older!
Try to focus on the positive! Even if you are feeling like poo... Try it! The next time you are going to post about
how bad you feel, post about
how pretty the day is, or how enjoyable dinner was with your husband - anything at all positive!
This is not to assume you are a negative person. I always enjoy hearing from you and I hope you can take something good out of this post to apply it towards your journey to healing!
You are on my mind this evening and I am praying for you!
God bless you my friend!
Post Edited (Cornell) : 11/2/2014 7:45:11 PM (GMT-7)