Posted 2/2/2015 2:02 PM (GMT -6)
Hi, friends! It's been a little while since my last severe bout with anxiety, but alas, a new one has popped us, as they always seem to.
I've been under a lot of stress lately, and I'm only recently starting to acknowledge that.
In November, some drastic changes happened at my job, and my responsibilities changed with it, and not for the better. I’m dealing with a team that is kind of resentful over the change, and doing work I don’t really enjoy, but, they, that's cool. I'll manage. I'm adaptable.
Around the same time, I started having a problem with my knees (lack of stability), and I had one bad twist that landed me on the floor, and then into a wheelchair for a good few weeks. Only over the past two or three weeks have I gotten accustomed to walking without some form of aid once again, and I’m still not back to normal, but at least I’m relatively mobile.
about two weeks ago or so, I started having severe tooth pain, and had a root canal done on an infected tooth. They seemed pretty confident that I would be fine and wouldn’t need antibiotics or anything of the sort, though the doctor did take a look at my X-Rays a few days later (when they were getting the impression for my crown), and made a comment like “It’ll probably be fine” then moved on with her day, and I didn't get a chance to ask about it.
Anyway, I noticed last week that my face felt like it was burning up, and seems to be happening at least once a day, though other times of the day, I feel perfectly normal. I didn't notice it at all over the weekend, either. I’ve had some stomach pains here and there, some back aches, but I also have ankylosing spondylitis and whole list of spinal problems. The hot face things are freaking me out, though. I don’t have chills, and I can’t find my thermometer (and I’ll be honest—I don’t really want to know), so I don’t know for sure what’s going on. The tooth pain stopped, and the back/stomach pain has reduced, but this is lingering although it’s on-and-off.
I thought about going to the doctor, but a friend made a point to me that kinda makes sense—I tend to go to the doctor a LOT. To the point that it’s like I use it as a crutch instead of dealing with the root of the anxiety, and I think that’s a very valid point. Almost every time I go to the doctor, very little, if anything, is really wrong with me. I waste time off work and money by going all the time, and I KNOW I suffer from anxiety, but sometimes I’m so very logical that I have a hard time reconciling anxiety with real, actual symptoms. Can anxiety do this?
Dx: Scoliosis, kyphosis, 6+ herniated discs, hypochondriasis & general anxiety
Rx: Occasional Norco, and the rare Xanax .5 every once and again.
"Battle not with monsters lest ye become a monster, and if you gaze into the abyss, the abyss gazes also into you."