I am not sure you will get the chance to read this before you leave, but I wanted to let you know that its okay and you are not alone. My deepest sympathy for your suffering. When people are not going through anxiety, or if they do not have any experience with it, it can be very difficult for a family. I remember when I first developed my anxiety disorder, my stepmother had no idea how to handle it and responded with a lot of anger and frustration. Bringing her along to several of my therapy appointments really was a turning point for our family. She didn't go to all of them, but there were some scheduled specifically so my family could understand what I was going through and how to support me and how to support themselves.
It is, frustratingly enough
, a very slow process to recovery. But, really make sure that you take time to notice your growth. Even though it is small baby steps, when we notice them it really helps us rally our spirits.
I often get really scared when I am about
to go out and about
and do things, but it is usually the anticipation that is the worst of it. If I can manage to let myself get lost in the act of "doing" once I am out and about
, I often find myself having a great time. It isn't easy, and it does take practice, but the more we can learn to live outside of our heads and in the moment, the happier we tend to be. People with anxiety/depression spend most of their lives in their own minds, over thinking. So, hard as it is, try to get lost in the moment of being with your daughter and being out of the house. When you find yourself getting into your own head, don't get mad or pass judgment on it, but note that you were getting too deep in your own mind and bring your focus back to what you are doing
Check out this resource: psychcentral.com/blog/archives/2013/06/03/new-to-mindfulness-how-to-get-started/#.Urr-gZ3naAI
. It is really good.
Wishing you calmness and a happy afternoon
Conditions: PTSD/GAD/Dysthymia & IBS-C
Treatment: Celexa 40mg, CBT Therapy, Meditation, Yoga, Klonopin .5 mg (as needed)
“A man is like a novel: until the very last page you don't know how it will end. Otherwise it wouldn't be worth reading.”
-Yevgeny Zamyatin, We