Posted 2/24/2015 10:40 PM (GMT -6)
I'm having a moment of weakness, and I already feel bad for giving in to it, but I just need to put a voice to what's happening without fear of repercussions.
I keep forgetting how to breathe. I have been super shaky for almost 3 weeks now, like to the point that I run into door frames and jam my shoulders into walls when I'm walking. I can't focus on anything. I don't want to eat because I can't keep anything inside of me. I don't sleep well, and when I do fall asleep I have crazy death dreams that are not restful at all. My heart is beating way too fast and I'm super dizzy. I know it's just anxiety. I do breathing exercises and pull out all my coping skills to fight it off, but I feel like I'm losing the battle. I have had at least one major panic attack every day for the past 3 weeks, usually more than one. I'm fairly certain my meds have stopped working. Again. I had an appointment with my doctor scheduled for today, but she called in sick so my appointment has been rescheduled for 31 March. I feel like I'm going crazy!
Sorry for venting.