thank you my dear friends. i see my shrink friday. i definitely need this. i am very complex at the moment. i suppose you get that with a gammet of mental health conditions. but then i am just a different species of turtle. usually over expressive, but brutely honest. as the plate gets slowly scrapped i hope i will recover a little. i don't like this word, but i hate the just existing thing. i am pushing as hard as i can, but i just need for my body and mind to heal and let me prosper. i feel so unproductive in society. i have not worked in 12 years, i am struggling just to get back over to see my fiance again this year. doing so is very difficult on a disability pension. then the forward anxiety of when we will actually be together permanently.
i am being present, decompressing as much as possible, using my coping skills as much as possible whilst trying to be productive and get well. sorry i am being complex again, but that is me. the outside is showing a picture of coping, but the inside is the most fragile i have been in a long time. it's a different fragility to anything risk adverse. just too much going on, i am soldering on, forever kicking and screaming. i will go. i hope the shrink has that reconditioned brain and mind ready for pick up!! lol. my love 2 u all. a complex turtle.
thx larry and weary. either i missed ya, i don't think but i may have been doing this post when ya were doing yours. thank you very much my friends.
THE HAPPY TURTLE.
'YESTERDAY IS A BUTTERFLY WITHOUT WINGS' BY JAMIE
'JUST DO IT'!!REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.
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