Posted 7/24/2015 11:44 AM (GMT -6)
Hello all! I just joined this forum when I saw a few people with problems that sounded similar to mine and I'm hoping to get some opinions...
I've always had a sensitive stomach, but it never hindered me in any way. I used to be in band and perform in solo competitions and even sing as the front woman for school bands in high school. I'm now entering my senior year of college and I can barely stand sitting in a classroom for the whole period I get so anxious. It's usually in places I can't "escape" from, where I'll feel like a bottle of vinegar that someone threw baking soda into and then capped really quickly, my throat gets tight, and from there I start to lose my bearings, I feel like I'm floating, and I'm scared I'll hurl everywhere. I was playing in a concert in December where I felt so uncomfortable I had my first panic attack, but after intermission my symptoms left completely and I played the rest of the concert just fine. My doctor told me my stomach makes too much acid and put me on acid reducers, which do help day-to-day, but as soon as I get anxious about something it all comes back. I've read books about panic attacks and I don't know if that's what I get, because I don't lose myself completely when it's at its worst but I still feel really uncomfortable and alone. I've had so many bad experiences with nausea that I anticipate it in certain situations, so now I can't tell if the bloating cause the anxiety or the other way around. If I take a Valium (prescribed for back spasms) before going somewhere, it usually shortens how long that discomfort lasts before going away. I wonder if I have a phobia of throwing up in places rather than general anxiety.
I'm so sorry about the long post, I'm just at a loss of what to do and I have a therapist at school that I won't be able to see until September... Has anyone had these symptoms? What do you do to cope? I just need someone who relates.... Thank you