I've been a regular on this forum for over a year , I always find myself suffering from an intense period of anxiety , then Im Ok for a few weeks , but after that something else comes up and the anxiety starts all over .
My life is pretty crap to be honest , I dont have much friends and my situation atm isnt the greatest .
The past couple months I rented a few escorts , just to help me out with these tough times , I was looking for love in all the wrong places and I was very desperate .
I know have serious serious regret about
sleeping with the escorts . The last one I slept with was October 31 , last saturday .
Heres the basic story and how everything happened .
We met up at her motel , we kisses a bit , no real hardcore french kissing but just a few peeks on the lips . ALL the sex we did was covered , we did that 2 times and I always looked down just to make sure the condom was still on . Condom never came off
She did give me a bj without a condom thou ..... I went to my sexual health clinic last year and the lady I spoke with said there's a very very minimal chance of getting HIV through oral sex .
I REGRET my decision soo much , omg if only I could go back and never call up these escorts .
Now Im worried sick if I caught something from her . Heres just a summary of all
- We kissed on the lips but not crazy
- ALL sex was covered with condom
- She gave me many bj's without a condom
The reason why Im really worried is because this lady had LOW RESTRICTIONS on her ad , she was basically up for whatever the guy wanted .
I spoke with her few times and she told me shes clean and gets tested every 2 weeks but alot of escorts lie .
We actually got along well and she was nice and we talked alot about
her personal stuff , I paid her for half hour but she let me stay for 2 hours .
I called her up again and said I wanted to see her again but I would feel better if I saw her tests results first .
She told me shes getting tested this thursday and the results should be in on tuesday .
She told me shes clean many times but darn , all these escort girls lie like crazy . There wasn't really a sexual category in here so this is the only place I could post my question ..... ughh I was doing soo good now this comes up and Im panicking
Small edit made to bring in line with forum rules
Post Edited By Moderator (Hibee) : 11/3/2015 6:35:16 AM (GMT-7)