Posted 2/25/2016 8:48 PM (GMT -7)
Hello everyone new to the forum. Actually I'm new to the forum thing all together. A little about myself I am 41 and have 6 kids (3 are my stepchildren). I have 4 beautiful grandchildren 2 girls and 2 boys, with another one on the way in May. Which will be a girl also. I have had panic attack/anxiety for the past 20 years. When I first got diagnosed it was so bad I didn't leave my house for a year. Tried numerous different medication, until we finally tried ativan. That and therapy helped. It took me awhile to get it under control, but I did it. I was good for many years to the point I was taking only 0.5mg of ativan on a as needed basis. Which the medicine was lasting almost a year or longer, to the point the doctor had to refill them because the life of the medication. Well, now I'm back to square one and my anxiety and panic attacks have come back with a vengeance! I've been to the hospital and had all the test done to make sure my heart is good, the test have come back good. Went back to my family doctor they did some test those all good. Now they are sending me back to the cardiologist to have a heart cath because they know I have the anxiety/panic attacks, but with my family history of heart disease they want to rule out everything. My problem is I've already been stressing about my heart I do ever time I have an attack. Now I'm even more concerned because I just can't get a handle on it. It's really draining me. I work on controlling my breathing and guided meditation helps, but it seems like I'm in constant anxious mode and I just can't get out. Still on the ativan, but now taking 2mg a day. I do have a supportive family, but they are not going through it, so they don't understand. Basically, I'm just looking for a group that has people who are struggling with the same things I am and can give me support, tips, advice or really anything. I know I have gotten through this before, but for some reason this time is just harder. Nauseous, headache, lightheaded, chest pains, shortness of breath and the uneasy feeling all of these things are literally driving me insane! Went to the grocery store today and only got half of the stuff we needed and I had to go to the car because I thought for sure I was going to be laying on the ground. Everything started to close in and I got clammy and nauseous, so I left my poor husband to deal with everything. When we got home I was exhausted like I just did a ton of work, fell asleep woke up still feeling anxious. Now my thoughts are starting to try and take over and make things worst. I'm an over thinker and once I have a pain or feel uneasy, everything goes nuts. I don't want to over think this, but normally after a panic/ anxiety attack I feel ok, not anxious like I'm still going through it. Is this normal? Has anyone else felt like this? Sorry for the long post.