Posted 2/29/2016 7:50 PM (GMT -6)
So, you know that list of possible side effects that accompanies every prescription? If you look down to the very bottom, where it says "extremely rare - contact physician immediately" they put that list there because of me. Without fail, I always experience the terrible unlikely side effects with every medication - I've tried over 30 now. So, my doctor has taken me off of all medications and told me to take 2 weeks and decide if I want to continue treatment. Being who I am (and having OCD without meds for 2 weeks) I made a list to compare/contrast symptoms with meds and without meds.
Without meds - absolutes, always present without medication
burning ears/neck sporadically without cause
strained eye contact
3 hour sleep intervals
With meds - sporadic, to varying degrees
prolonged panic attacks
Now, after going over the lists, the without med list seems the logical, rational choice. BUT, I'm having a really hard time dealing with those things. I think part of the problem is that I like for things to make sense and my anxiety does not make sense - there is no reason for it. I can pinpoint a cause for the symptoms/side-effects of medication, and I prefer to experience terrible things that have a cause over mildly annoying things without a cause.
Just needed to articulate my concerns, and my family already thinks I'm crazy so I really don't want to try to explain it to them.