Thank you kindly, Scaredy Cat. Your words inspire me greatly
I'm feeling a little better today, but I have to say I've been having the weirdest, most irrational thoughts as of lately. As far as symptoms go, seems like cardiphobia. While I havent yet completed necessary physical exams, I don't have same acute panic right now. I plan to ask for therapy as soon as I get enough money. For now I'll settle for some trial online counselling. Maybe stick with it even, since it could come out even cheaper, despite RUR/USD price being no bueno.
I can't wait to get to the bottom of it. Seems more and more likely to be a spinal/neurological problem.
I canceled the trip, because I thought it would be too much for me at this point. Too much overstimulation is probably not the best idea in my position. It was promising to be a very intense experience, and would probably be too much for me.
I'll visit relatives instead, been a good 6 years since I last saw my cousin. Plus my aunt is an ambulance nurse, maybe she could advice something.
Also I should take it easy on phenobarbital, it seems. It helps to soothe panic a bit, but leaves me feeling very... out of it, so to say
Post Edited (madotsuki) : 12/25/2016 7:17:25 AM (GMT-7)