Thanks, guys. My situation is that we didn't want kids, but I know this is what God wants. So I'm sure more of that bonding will happen.
I guess that's my worry, that I'll freak out! I'll be floors up unable to escape, and escaping is what I do. So far, I'm doing better than I was. I know there's so much GOOD happening. I'ts just the old thoughts. The fear of panicking and not being able to run. That's it. Being trapped. My core issue.
I'm hoping to feel better sooon so I can start exposure therapy with my therapist. I know if I can make the place "safe" before going, knowing what to expect, maybe making friends with some nurses, that I will feel better about
going in there.
I'm considering a doula. I have a midwife, but I think she'll be so busy otherwise...
Thanks for all the support--means the WORLD to me because I know you guys get it