No shame whatsoever!
I think we have neurochemistry that is a bit different than others and unfortunately it manifests with an overactive / overanxious / overresponsive / etc nervous system.
Looking back on life, my anxiety has been fairly consistent with panic flare ups here and there. As a kid my parents were great at mollifying it, but as an adult with all those obligations and less support, I've struggled.
I've resigned that I will be on Lexapro or a similar medication for the rest of my life.
Hang in there; you're not alone!
Anxiety Sufferer Since the 1980s
Lexapro @ 10mg per day
Trazodone as needed for sleep