"Hoping I could just get some support and words of encouragement as I feel I'm on the verge of a complete breakdown. I've always suffered from GAD and bouts of depression. Generally things come in waves for me. Pretty good for a bit and than something triggers and I go in a downward spiral. I'm in the downward spiral and can use some help getting myself back."
Well, there's generally three ways you can go.
One, using the mindfulness techniques suggested on the first, main page of this website.
2nd, you could go to a psychiatrist who for GAD (General Anxiety Disorder) can give you limited therapy and anti-anxiety pills.
3rd, there are some health food store items which might help.
Someone who keeps up with these things on this website said one of his latest finds was, for sleep, "Knock-Out," which combines Melatonin and Valerian Root, which he says is a good combination.
It think he said it was working for him, at least for awhile.
I take Melatonin (not with Valerian Root), 1 mg., and it puts me to sleep. Now I also take doctor pills for my Bipolar, Lithium for the mania, and Mirtazapine for the depression.
If I did not take the 2 doctor pills, 1 mg of Melatonin is not putting me to sleep. It comes in 5 mg and 10mg tablets, so that much must be OK.
That would seem a lot to me, but if I really wanted to go to sleep without doctor pills, I'd probably try 5 mg., maybe a little more. Your decision.
But with the Melatonin and Valerian Root being combined in "Knock-Out," that seems to make it stronger, so I think that would be a good combination.
I just talked to someone who tried "Knock-Out" and they said they took three of those 1 mg pills and it put them to sleep, waking up every couple of hours, but still basically sleeping through the night.
That person took three, 1mg. tablets. If you needed, you might could go to 4 or 5mg, or even a little more. Your choice.
So that's a pretty good sign.
Also mentioned by that same person on this board who keeps up with these things, is he took "Chamomile capsules and l theanine" from the health food store, and noted that it was very effective.
The person I talked to who slept basically through the night on "Knock-Out" (3, 1 mg tablets), also took at bedtime the above "Chamomile and l theanine" calmative from the health food store.
So those in combination might be good. You also get "Chamomile and l theanine" and use that for daytime anxiety.
You can buy these at a health food store, or on the net, or from Walgreen Drug Stores, and other such chain stores.
Some say check with your doctor or druggist about these, and if you are taking other meds, to see if they conflict. My psychiatrist says Melatonin is OK with her cause it's been around so long.
I also took a health food store sleep aid which hurt my kidneys, and my psychiatrist says many of them, if any, have been tested like doctor pills have. So you have to be careful.
As far as being positive, I would try to be positive that you can get through this, no matter which route or routes you take.
Thinking from the beginning of a problem that you can solve it, increases the chances that you can, for it opens up areas of the brain to be on the search for victory.
It might not be in the first area that you search, but if you can stay positive that you can solve this, it might be in the 3rd or 4th area that your positive brain lights on.
Thinking that you can't solve this next problem, closes down the areas of the brain that might otherwise search for victory, and this negative command tells your brain to look only for areas of defeat.
Same brain, but different command from you.