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DizzyDoodle
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   Posted 9/10/2017 9:04 PM (GMT -7)   
This all started a few days ago when I got sick, I felt bad so I pretty much quit smoking and drinking because I had no urge, my anxiety came like a storm.

Just a little background I've been smoking a pack a day for around five years, which is why I'd like to quit eventually. But alcohol I would have anywhere from 2-4 nights a week and I'd only drink 2-3beers sometimes less if I was tired.

I made it one day without smoking or drinking. I'm back smoking now for today as it really seemed to help my anxiety but I refuse to touch alcohol.

I've had anxiety and depression basically my whole life, but it's been manageable especially the depression. I very rarely have depression bad enough to think I need help which is a great achievement vs where I was a few years ago

Anxiety has always been there as well but more is less in the back of my head flaring up at most once or twice a week and it was more annoying than anything

I actually really enjoyed not smoking yesterday, it really opened up light in my life that I haven't seen in ages, I really feel like smoking puts you in your own little shell. Quitting smoking is definitely a solid goal now I'm just waiting to get my anxiety under control.

Yesterday I had my first anxiety attack in years, I used to get them once every few months as a child randomly for a few years and then one day just stopped. Well there back and I feel so hopeless. I can handle depression extremely well now due to several years experience but this new found strength of my anxiety is just tearing me a new one.

I did plenty of research on things to do to help but about the only thing I found that did help was exercising. Man it was better than drinking, even just five minutes of the stuff, problem is it only sticks for a few hours..

The hardest time I have is when I'm alone, at night. Odd story I'm actually a night owl that spends up to 4am awake and then sleeps til noon, this used to be enjoyable but is now pure hell.

Taking my mind off it only seems to make it worse, I've done some positive reassuring speeches with myself outload in a miror and that helps, but it's still like even if I'm not having an anxiety attack I feel like I'm about to. I'd love to find a way to just let it all out so I can start on a new slate here, just some method of last resort that doesn't involve drugs or alcohol.

I have a history of bottling up my emotions which is probably contributing to this, it's been so long idk how to let it out, how to cry how to scream..

I just need help on how to let it out, and not let anxiety rule my life,

Thanks in advance <3

Scaredy Cat
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   Posted 9/10/2017 10:00 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi D.D. and welcome!

I am sorry to hear of your increased anxiety/panic issues lately. I know what a challenge this is.

However, I am really glad you've reached out here, as I think it's a great step in the right direction. The healthy lifestyle goals and the coping skills you've started as well are going to really help, so continue focus on those!

Also, check out our Resources at the top of the main forum page here for more great material that should help. Journaling might be a cathartic way to release the feelings you have a tendency to bottle up...and there is a link for this specifically...as well as Therapy Worksheets, Positive Mantra /Affirmation exercises and more.

If you find you need further help, then finding a therapist if this is a possibility for you might be another goal you set.

Keep talking with us as well if you find it helpful. We understand, care and support is key!

Talk soon,

Scaredy Cat
Moderator:Anxiety/Panic

"Courage is not the abscence of fear, it is feeling afraid and doing it anyway!"

"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles...it empties today of its strength."
Corrie Ten Boom

Panic Syndrome recovery due to CBT

DizzyDoodle
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   Posted 9/11/2017 6:07 AM (GMT -7)   
Thank you so much S.C.

I forgot to mention I did start this diary/journal because me and my closest friend only get to talk once a week so that way as could share our feelings and thoughts without forgetting.

I'll check out the resources you mentioned

Once again I appreciate it!
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