I am sending my prayers your way!
I don't think you should take any more than .50 mg to start. See how you do with that and your breathing/relaxation coping skills.
You can do this. You are stronger than you realize.
Remember, you are doing this for a better life for you, your wife and your kids. They need you now, and you can do this.
Let us know how you are doing when you arrive and can post.
We are here for you!
"Courage is not the abscence of fear, it is feeling afraid and doing it anyway!"
"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles...it empties today of its strength."
Corrie Ten Boom
Panic Syndrome recovery due to CBT