I know I haven't checked in in a few weeks, I've been in Texas for the past few weeks visiting my partner's family and have tried to immerse fully. It's been a hectic (to say the least) trip, we drove from Los Angeles, to Phoenix, to El Paso, now in Lubbock, with a weekend trip to New Mexico last weekend. We're finally heading home on Monday even though overall we've had a great time. We've managed to have something booked every night whether it be dinner, a football game, volunteering, going to the fair, visiting someone, or something, which has put my homebody self out of my comfort zone which I know is a great thing, but it's definitely exhausting. Especially for someone who does not like crowds, or being away from her space.
I just wanted to get your opinion on something. Tonight, we were invited to my partners sister in laws birthday celebration (the trip to NM was to celebrate her birthday, and we also did a dinner earlier this week) that she's sharing with people we don't know at a very crowded venue. I just don't know if I have it in me tonight to do another event. My anxiety while at bay, has also been at a huge high with the decrease in Zoloft, and I feel like I just need a break from everything. We have a busy weekend before we go (another football game, and they're having a big dinner Saturday night), and this is really my only night to take care of me before we go. Not to mention it's that time of the month and I'm not feeling 100%- I've had to medicate with NSAID's every 4 hours to dull the excruciating pain.
Am I wrong to say no to go tonight? Or am I letting anxiety win and keeping me inside?