Hi GG and welcome to the A/P!
I am really sorry to hear that you are struggling atm. I know how challenging this is.
I am also very sorry to hear about
the loss of your grandfather...of course this is a natural trigger for A/D.
I am glad to hear that you are in therapy currently, and encourage you to keep working towards your goals there. It takes time, especially with start ups, discontinuations...setbacks, ect...but it is, and will continue to help.
Try and be as consistent with your coping skills as well...and always seek to learn new ones. You never know when a technique is going to just *click* and some good progress will be made.
Please see our Resources
at the top of the main forum page here for great material to check out.
Who currently prescribes your psychotropics for you? Is it your GP or Gastro dr.? If so, you may want to consider getting a referral for a psychiatrist for the best knowledge of what Rx would best suit your needs. If you are already seeing a P-doc...asking about
the possibility of a Genesight type test might be worth your while for finding your closest med compatibility choices.
Keep posting with us as well if you find it helpful! We understand, care and support is key! Best of health... body and mind to you.
"Courage is not the abscence of fear, it is feeling afraid and doing it anyway!"
"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles...it empties today of its strength."
Corrie Ten Boom
Panic Syndrome recovery due to CBT