I am sorry that you are struggling with all of this. Anxiety...skin issues...they are hard enough to deal with...but then add in possible Rx complications and it all must seem very overwhelming.
Your doctor needs to know about
your self harming thoughts. Even if you are not acting on them, (which is great news, well done!) you will want to find an alternative plan that has you free of these compulsions.
If you feel that you can't talk to your mom at this time, is there another trusted person in your life that you can confide in? If you are in school, your counselor would be a great choice...or perhaps your pastor/youth leader if you attend church. Getting someone to help advocate/mediate things between you and your mom could help her to take you more seriously.
Please do take these steps to get the help that you need. Things will get better....with time and continued effort. Do practice the self help from our Resources...and let us know how you are doing soon.
Peace and progress,
"Courage is not the abscence of fear, it is feeling afraid and doing it anyway!"
"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles...it empties today of its strength."
Corrie Ten Boom
Panic Syndrome recovery due to CBT