Do you have the option of talking with a therapist or do you have a social worker that could perhaps facilitate finding you a group that you could get involved with for peer support in dealing with these feelings?
"Courage is not the abscence of fear, it is feeling afraid and doing it anyway!"
"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles...it empties today of its strength."
Corrie Ten Boom
Panic Syndrome recovery due to CBT