I am so sorry to hear that you are in a difficult place right now. I wish it wasn't so...or that there was a way to just make it go away!
How is your med regimen going? Were you able to go and get what you needed yet for your management plan...or are you still lacking the Rx's you need?
Here is the link for applying for dissability. I hope you can get through the process...or have someone help you through it...so you can get the help/income that you need./www.ssa.gov/disability/disability.html
Sending you encouragement my friend,
"Courage is not the abscence of fear, it is feeling afraid and doing it anyway!"
"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles...it empties today of its strength."
Corrie Ten Boom
Panic Syndrome recovery due to CBT