Posted 4/7/2018 10:57 PM (GMT -6)
It has been awhile. I am just needing an outlet this evening, where I will not be told that I am being irrational, or to just breathe, or that it is all in my head. All of those things are true - I just do not need to hear them.
My head is pounding, my teeth hurt, hands are shaking like crazy, cannot seem to keep my eyes from crying. My daughter dropped her plush octopus in a store this afternoon and my brain is frantically trying to plan how to make the 3 hour round-trip to retrieve it in the morning, get an extended-family dinner prepared, and still make it to Church services on time. My doc moved her practice to another state last July and this past week I was finally able to see the doc she referred me to; it was like starting all over from the very beginning - like a 20 year set back. My younger brother and sister, and their families, are leaving tomorrow after a week long visit and every corner of my house now needs to be cleaned. I cannot think straight; I cannot even remember how to breathe properly.
I am fine. I will be fine.