Terrified of breast cancer

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LuvMyDAD
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   Posted 5/16/2018 2:33 PM (GMT -6)   
HI everyone, sorry for the new post. I can't sit or think straight. I am in constant state of panic. I have been having stingy feelings in my right breast, and its so lumpy like big lumps. I also just got my period but the lumpiness and stings are still there which freaks me out more.
I called the breast surgeon and the nurse kind of brushed me off saying get a new bra?? That maybe my bra isn't fitting well, well I don't think that is the problem. SO I pushed and now they scheduled me for a bilateral ultrasound and NOW I AM FREAKING OUT MORE. Its scheduled for next Tuesday and I don't know how I am going to get through these days!!! I am 36 years old so I know I am not too young to get it. Anyone had these symptoms before?

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   Posted 5/16/2018 3:24 PM (GMT -6)   
LMD,

I mentioned fibrocystic breast disease in my last response to you. (no response on your part, so not sure if you saw it?) The symptoms you describe match this benign condition.

Only your doctor can tell you for sure if this is what you are experiencing...

...but please try not to panick about what your anxiety is trying to convince you of.

Use your coping skills and let us kniw how your appointment goes.

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LuvMyDAD
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   Posted 5/16/2018 6:58 PM (GMT -6)   
Thank you Scaredy Cat. I hope its just like you said fibrocystic disease....but do you feel pain even after you have your period? I thought its only before your period..this pain isn't cyclic pain sad((
Sorry I didn't see your post earlier. In a panic I opened a new post.

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   Posted 5/16/2018 7:45 PM (GMT -6)   
LuvMyDad, I happened to see your post & wanted to respond. The condition ScaredyCat spoke about is very real for some women & can strike at any age. Back in my working days we had a young girl that was about 22 years old that suffered horribly with these benign cysts. She had them in both breasts. She was diagnosed at the age of 17 with them. The dr advised her to stay away from caffeine, tea, coffee, sodas & chocolate, be totally caffeine free. Well, she was young & did not listen to her dr & suffered with a lot of pain. Finally when she got a few years older she decided she best go caffeine free & it really did help her a lot.

Go see your PCP to be checked & to also help ease your mind. I am not a dr but just wanted you to know that this is not uncommon.
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Scaredy Cat
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   Posted 5/16/2018 7:50 PM (GMT -6)   
FBD pain certainly is more prevalent leading up to your period...but can be present at other times of the month as well.

I really encourage you to talk to your OBGYN about this for reassurance. This is a common issue for women of childbearing age...and poses no health risks whatsoever...just annoyance/discomfort. :/

I use warm rice packs when mine acts up.smile

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   Posted 5/17/2018 12:55 AM (GMT -6)   
During period to have lumpy breast is not uncommon .But have ultrasound when you feel slightly better.

I know its tough but believe me you might be OK.

Keeping you in thoughts and hope you have courage to withstand the tests.

Keep going to Gyn for appts.

Good luck!
Cilly
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LuvMyDAD
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   Posted 5/18/2018 4:58 PM (GMT -6)   
OKay so I went to OB and she agreed i have palpable lump (S)!
I went to breast surgeon, she felt it too. Had ultrasound didnt find anything and 3D mammogram didn't find anything, I thought I was done then she calls me this morning. She is like I would like to go ahead and schedule an MRI and a biopsy mammos can miss things. I AM HERE AGAIN I AM GOING CRAZY AND MY LIFE IS FLASHING BEFORE MY EYES. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF OR HOW I AM GOING TO LAST UNTIL MY NEXT APPOINTMENT....PLEASE HELP ME. I AM SO SCARED!!! MY BREAST WENT FROM NORMAL TO A BUNCH OF DENSE LUMPS IN ONE MONTH. I AM CONVINCED I HAVE AN AGGRESSIVE FORM OF BREAST C.

straydog
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   Posted 5/18/2018 5:03 PM (GMT -6)   
Luv's remember the young girl at my office, this is exactly what her gyn did with her. The dr is doing her job by ordering these tests just to make sure there is nothing there. It's scary but hang in there.
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LuvMyDAD
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   Posted 5/18/2018 5:26 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Straydog, I really hope its that. I just keep thinking of all he aggressive breast cancers out there that just pop out of nowhere and I am convinced i have one of them. I can't believe I am touching my own breast it feels so foreign to me now. I am 36 years old, doesn't that happen when you are younger? I don't know. I can't go through this I don't know what to do with myself

straydog
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   Posted 5/18/2018 5:53 PM (GMT -6)   
The young girl I was talking about started having the cysts when she was 17 years old. As she got a little older she had more develop & these were in both breasts & it was very painful. By the time she was 22 years old she had to have the biopsy's done on both breast. They were benign just as her dr suspected in the very beginning. However, it was the drs job to make sure that it was nothing else. Treatment consisted on getting off of ALL caffeine. As long as she left the caffeine alone she did not have the horrible tenderness & pain. My sister & several of my friends have had breast cancer. None of them had multiple lumps, only one spot was found on the mammo. And none of them had pain, they were found by routine mammograms, found by total accident. I am not claiming to have a vast knowledge base on breast cancer, however, the people I know personally & a few other members here at HW, did not have your symptoms.
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Scaredy Cat
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   Posted 5/19/2018 12:26 AM (GMT -6)   
LMD,

Sounds like your doctor is just being very thorough. I know how awful it is to wait out these results...so know that I understand how you are feeling at the moment...

...not because I think you have reason to worry, but rather because I would likely be feeling the same...that is kind of how we with anxiety roll after all.

Sending you my best wishes for getting through this by using your skills and staying distracted. Use positive mantras and refuse to worry about something that is likely nothing at all to fear.

We are here with you!

S.C.
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Lendi
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   Posted 5/19/2018 8:14 AM (GMT -6)   
I would be worried as well as I'm like you even before appt. Try to distract yourself, do something to keep busy; shopping even just to look, lunch with a friend etc. The days will go past more quickly.

My mom had a lump that they swore was cancerous. They had already prepared to remove it they were so sure but when they got in it wasn't cancerous at all. She didn't have all the tests you are because it has been many years but it's not done until it's done.
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   Posted 5/20/2018 5:35 AM (GMT -6)   
I read your post and I feel so bad for the anxiety you're experiencing. But I have to say that it reminded me so much of myself later. I don't have the same condition you're referring to but I have had problems with my stomach and colon lately and have to start going in for various tests which are scaring me to death. I am convinced I have colon cancer and waiting to have these test done is putting me into a constant state of panic . I have avoided doctors for years and have had an ongoing fear of cancer in one form or another since I was young. Now that I'm older I am convinced that it has to be cancer of some kind and I just obsess over it 24 seven. Sometimes I think my anxiety panic disorder is more serious than any physical condition I might have but yet I seem to be able, I mean on able, to get past that . And I apologize for any mistakes I make in the typing here but I also have macular degeneration and cannot see very well. I have a feeling your condition is what everyone else is describing here and I know your muster the strength to get in there and get that confirmed to you so you can feel better . I just hope I can do the same thing for myself. Anxiety makes everything worse than it actually is and if I had one wish in this life it would be to be able to ultimately climb out of this anxiety panic cycle.

LuvMyDAD
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   Posted 5/20/2018 6:37 AM (GMT -6)   
Thank you everyone. Andywes I know what you mean, before I would say to myself, "well I am too young for this and too young for that" to calm down my anxiety but now I can't say that anymore. Anxiety is the worst and today I have my nephew's baptism and all I can thikn about is that he won't remember his auntie when he gets older. I don't know this is terrible. I am obsessed with statistics now. The doctor told me the the tests Ive done are 95% percent reliable so go home and just relax. But how can I? When there is a 5% percent chance I might have breast cancer. Whats running through my mind right now is....what stage is it? Its a big lump, omg if it is BC its advanced or aggressive because I didnt have this two months ago. OMG and the waiting for the results is the worst part. If this is all NOTHING in the end, I am getting prophylactic mastectomy because there is no way I want to deal with this again at any point in my life.

Scaredy Cat
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   Posted 5/20/2018 9:31 PM (GMT -6)   
Keep checking in with us...we'll do our best to help keep you calm.

Remember the positive mantras...the reassuring rational things we repeat to our selves makes a huge difference in our mood!

It's going to be alright.(((❤)))

S.C.
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LuvMyDAD
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   Posted 5/24/2018 10:35 AM (GMT -6)   
Thanks Scaredy I took my results and went to a local breast surgeon and she told me it feels like fibrous breast tissue, etc. She said she would not order an MRI because I am not high risk?

The other breast surgeon said I was high risk and I just got a copy of my mammogram report that said I have extremely dense breast tissue, typed that into google and I am hyperventilating, my breast cancer risk is 6 times that of someone with regular breast tissue. I feel doomed, I am so scared my MRI isn't until Wednesday. I only got an ultrasound of the area they were worried about (that showed nothing) but now I am thinking there is cancer lurking everywhere in my breasts especially now that they are thick and lumpy I don't know what to do or how I am going to live through this
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Scaredy Cat
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   Posted 5/24/2018 1:28 PM (GMT -6)   
From what I have read, and from what my own doctor has told me...fibrous breast tissue is not considered high risk...and those with fibrocystic breast 'disease' do not (as a result) go on to develop, or have a higher incidence of BC than those without it.

Be careful with what you read online...and instead try and trust your doctors and what your test results yield.

Hang in there until you get your MRI. Use your Mantras to speak against those what if/catastrophic thoughts that the anxiety is causing. You are going to be alright. (((Hugs)))

We are here with you,

S.C.
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LuvMyDAD
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   Posted Today 6:38 AM (GMT -6)   
hi Scaredycat,

Yes, fibrocystic disease does not increase chances of breast cancer but "dense breasts", does correlate with an increase of breast cancer 4 to 5 times as much as someone with regular breasts.

Just shoot me. I feel like everything is falling on me. I can't believe the breast surgeon (second one) told me to just watch it, I asked her how sure are you that it is nothing, she said with negative scans 95 percent. Well she was planning on sending me home with a 5% chance of cancer????? I am going crazy. I am so scared. It is such a big lump too. If god forbid it is the C, then I am doomed with this size.

Scaredy Cat
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   Posted Today 11:32 AM (GMT -6)   
LMD,

As hard as it is, you really just need to dig deep, and use reassuring statements to speak agaims the anxiety and catastrophic thoughts it is causing you.

Even if you dont don't fully believe the mantras you are repeating...if you're persistent with them, they will make changes in your thinking patrerns and outlook.

(((Hugs)))

S.C.
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"Courage is not the abscence of fear, it is feeling afraid and doing it anyway!"

"Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles...it empties today of its strength."
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