6 months of having my anxiety and OCD under control I have, in three short weeks, completely reversed course. At the end of last month I took a work trip to Las Vegas. My wife joined me for three nights, and then flew home. I had another day of work so I stayed another night and prepared to fly home the next day. Something that night, and the following day triggered such massive anxiety that I have been falling apart ever since. I hate to fly alone, so I fly first class to make it more comfortable. I knew I might have some difficulty, but again, my GAD/OCD had been stable for months. I never had a full blown panic attack, just waves of discomfort, dizziness, body tingles and nausea. But I really expected to arrive home and that would just fade away. It did not
. Every day my anxiety got worse. OCD and intrusive thoughts were coming on with increased frequency. Now I'm back to my old anxious self where I wake up with shocks and anxiety at 4AM that come and go until I meander out of bed. How can one bad bout of anxiety snowball like this!?
I know my coping techniques, I know this can't hurt me and I can't avoid it. I know I have to face it head on. But it's so hard, and it's so darn discouraging. It's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I had a medical procedure two days ago, I didn't feel right the night after sedation so I did the worst I could possibly do....I GOOGLED
. Google convinced me I had a bad reaction to the propofol. I read so many stories of people going under anesthesia, then killing themselves within ten days. It sprung up instant fear that I might become massively depressed and then hurt myself. Now throw in the anxiety from that, with the intrusive thoughts from GAD or OCD and I had a right awful day.
Any advice you guys could give would be greatly appreciated. I hate that I struggle with this so much after such a GREAT 6 months.