This really hits home for me, because I am going through a period now of having GAD when I had a couple months of basically none. And, like you, no real trigger other than just thinking about it too much. I am on a low dose of zoloft (37.5) and it has helped me. Although I am now considering bumping up to 50 if this episode continues on for another week or so. I think a lot of the anxiety comes from not knowing what the cause is......that our reactions start to build up and we can't understand why. Then it continues to frustrate us, and the circle continues. I am trying to see this as part of the journey.....ebbs and flows. And to be OK with GAD and not fight it. Accept that is who I am for now and that having it with me is ok, and won't affect me too much. It may be uncomfortable of course, but I can still function and get by throughout the day.
I also have klonopin for my rescue medication, which I had to take for a couple days last week when things surged.
For me, I get that I have GAD and I'm not alone, but I guess I'm not "OK" with it in the sense that I just want to be how I normally am. I think everyone has their best way to cope, and if that's what works for you, then awesome!
But anxiety really is the darnedest thing. We're just living our lives and all of a sudden it hits without warning. Sorry you're going through the same thing, but at the same time, it's really nice to know that we're not alone in this very strange situation.
Scaredy Cat said...
Hi H.H. and welcome back...
...though sorry to hear that it is due to returning anxiety.
Sometimes when we would least expect it, anxiety can hit us...seemingly out of the blue. However, if you think about it...vacations are actually a perfect storm, so to speak...in terms of varying factors that could trigger us.
Change in sleep patterns, eating, environment and routine can be enough to shake up our regular management regimen. Even though we are relaxing...and having a genuinely good time...for those that deal with anxiety...stepping out of the norm can be enough to challenge our status quo. Even just heightened emotional/levels and excitement can register as anxiety in our minds/bodies...our system doesn't always distinguish between positive and negative 'stress'.
Hang in there until your upcoming appointments. I would recommend taking the smallest amount of your benzo to start (splitting the pill depending on the dosage) and only when you really need it...so as to not run out completley.
Also, use those coping skills! Remember our Resources at the top of the main page are full of great material. If irrational thoughts are your current challenge...start with the Therapy Worksheets to combat them.
Let us know how you are doing soon...and keep posting so we can keep you in support!
What you say is true about
vacations, and I did think about
that. I've been on a cruise before without incident, and this is my second, so I rationalized that due to having been through what a cruise is like, it shouldn't have been the vacation. On the other hand, different cruise, different events and people, so yeah, my body wouldn't really distinguish between the two.
I have .5 mg (I believe) of the alprazolam, and I was a bit worried that splitting it might not make it effective, but it may be my best bet until next Wednesday. I called my doctor again to ask if I could get a "bridge," but I absolutely need to be seen to get any amount by them. Ugh, the issue I have is simply that I don't want to go to urgent care again because co-pays are higher there.
I'm going to try to half-dose it. I was really hoping being back on land and back in the normal groove of things would get me back to normal quicker.