Posted 1/3/2019 9:26 PM (GMT -6)
Oh my friend...
I can't imagine how hard this first anniversary must be for you. I wish I could reach through the miles and give you a hug and tell you that it is all going to be alright.
Because...it is...with time. This is still so new, and there are so many complicated and confusing feelings wrapped up in all that you went through last year.
However, in the future the hurt and conflicting feelings will lessen...there will be healing, as well as clarity that comes with distance and time.
One thing you can't do now is what-if yourself into guilt and despair. The situation is what it is. You did your best, with no help or support...and you did well. Rest in that reality please.
I will be keeping you in thought and prayer tomorrow. This is the hardest one. You can get through it...and it will never be so hard again.
Peace and progress and hugs,